hi @tulip ,
I love so much what you have written! Of course, I feel sad that you have had to endure this emotionally exhausting life with your ex, but I am happy also, that you chose to express what you have been through, with strength and compassion.
My life has "somewhat" been calmer since I last wrote on here. I think, the initial 'shock/withdrawal' my housemate was experiencing from suddenly coming off meds after so many years has plateued it self, and the rants are becoming less frequent. There have still been times, when he has been innappropriate (yelling, or getting aggravated for no reason), and this affects me - making me feel hopeless, and isolated all over again. But, there has been no incidences, that were extreme as the last time I wrote on here.
If he is rude, or aggressive in his behaviour, I leave him be, and go do my own thing ( mostly t.v! or go for a walk or something)
I hope you can find some comfort and peace in your life, it is not easy, especially if you are actually physically impaired at the moment. It is also frustrating, that your ex is trying to admit himself to hospital, and being sent away (it makes me wonder, is he aware that his ilness requires intervention - more than usual at the moment? or is this behaviour of trying to admit himself, part of his disease?) It is sad that there are not more resources for someone with MI, and it is not fair that you have to care for him either. Is that what you meant when you wrote, that the more you give, the more he takes? That is how I feel at times, but, I MUST look out for myself, even if it seems as though I am being mean.
I think the most important thing is that you are safe.
Hope you have a good rest of week:)
