Needing support

[Till23]

I’m hoping @Gremlin24 that with your obvious inner strength, resilience and compassion along with the support of the forums and other supports that the fine line thickens into an impenetrable wall. 

I don’t doubt that it will be a long, winding and bumpy road. Remember you’ll be travelling the journey with many other people who’s roads will crisscross with yours along the way and you’ll exchange ideas, strategies and resources with each other. I hope that I encounter you on our journey many more times. You truly have value.

[Gremlin24]

@Till23 thankyou. I really hope that line does thicken, cos being right on the edge is incredibly scary.

Being here is the one thing that's keeping me going right now, knowing that I have the support of you and so many others while I navigate this journey is invaluable to me. 

I'm doing some painting at the moment to keep my mind off of things and it's something I've been enjoying lately. 

[Judymay]

@Gremlin24 Hello I am sorry I can only imagine how you are felling but I think you are brave for reaching out and putting yourself out there, that's an incredible self care you already did today! I am not a professional and still learning but I listened to this one today and decided I need to put on my regular rotation as self kindness is something I'm still practicing.

https://youtu.be/R_fkFYdoDYs?si=MgcF5_dgM1di8q8v

I would just look till you find one that is good for you we are all so different but I am not to f

good at self talk so it helps having someone in my ears affirming and it's almost nice as I'm not used to hearing those words.

small steps, it may be 5 minutes today, and that is okay. Every little bit initiates a healthy new routine that is so important for you and your wellbeing. 

[Gremlin24]

@Judymay thankyou. I will have a look at some stage. It was just lucky that I got someone that cared otherwise today's outcome would have been totally different. I'm trying hard to find a way to show kindness to myself. Today I treated myself to a couple of puzzles and I did some of my painting, now I'm colouring. 

[Judymay]

@Gremlin24 @I hope you are proud of yourself that today. You have looked after yourself even when you felt not worth it something inside you are, try, fight and that is brave.

[Gremlin24]

@Judymay part of me is proud but the other part is very much ashamed. 

[Judymay]

Ah the complexities of being human. Feeling simultaneously is completely okay and valid.

[dehaha]

Hi @Gremlin24 .

Ahhhh.....the sweet joy of that pinpoint of light when it finally breaks through is wonderful.  I am really glad that you got a person on the line who actually listened to you. 

I call the help lines often when I need to. I have found some with advice and others who just want to make sure that you stick with the 20 minute time limit. I am so glad, that at a time when it was really needed,  you found someone who gave you the time you needed.

I really hope that when you are able to reach out to one of the new recommended services that you get more help than you have in the past. 

I hope you are doing ok tonight.  You are not alone  🥰

[Gremlin24]

@dehaha it really was a crucial moment for me so I'm glad it worked out the way it did, I think. 

Yes I've had the same experience with those that really stick to that 20-30 minute time frame and they don't care what you are talking about when the time runs out so they just disappear. 

Unfortunately the public holidays make reaching out to these other services challenging as they are closed but hopefully they can offer support once I can make that contact. 

Tonight has been rough and it's a struggle but I'm trying to be kind to myself. Thankyou ❤️ 

[Till23]

@Gremlin24 I’m glad you were able to do some things to help ease your distress today.

You were able to show yourself compassion even when distressed -  this is a great skill to have. 
Distraction is a great tool to keep yourself away from the distress.

Even better if you were able to enjoy the distractions. It gives you that beam of light to show you there’s still joy in the world