You don’t realise how alone you are until you’re getting intense medical treatment away in another state by yourself and not one person you’ve told asks how you’re going or even msgs you. Couple of work texts and those same people who know occassionally msg to ask questions for their own benefit (asking about horse gear they want me to sell)
The person supposedly picking me up and staying with me won’t even answer their phone.
I’ve not had the best time during the treatment so I’ve been isolated to my room except a couple of wanders up and down the hallway when I’ve felt well enough. Nurses pop in every 2-4 hours which is fine but I see everyone getting visits from their family friends or receiving phone calls.
I guess I know where I stand in life and goes to show unless I’m helpful no one cares. I’m sorry for sounding selfish over something trivial but it’s been a really long journey and week with lots of ups and downs and not one person to share them with. I keep a lot to myself but send the only way to get through is to pretend your find altogether even when your not.
it would be nice to have a real friend.
